Anyone else excited for warm weather? These last few mornings have been absolutely beautiful and my insides are crying for the regularity of warmer weather and the life that comes with Spring. For now, though, I am enjoying the sun as it rises earlier with each passing morning and the beautiful songs of the birds in our neighborhood that continue to remind me that warmer weather is on the way. The added activity of squirrels and bunnies also help to create the scenes that reassure my soul that the chilly days of Winter are limited.
Last week, I think I pushed it too far. My beautiful wife was ill for a few days and I had to walk by myself. As a result, I was left to my own devices to determine the days, speed, distance, etc., that I would be walking. It was difficult to walk alone and, since I wanted to be lazy and stop, I reacted by pushing myself every single day. What I didn’t plan for was my wife getting better and wanting to utilize the remaining days of the week to get moving! I also didn’t know the weather was going to become extremely beautiful and I would find it IMPOSSIBLE not to be out in such amazing weather. As a result, I ended up walking 7 days without taking a day to rest and I was left with a hugely sore ankle.
This experience left me with a few revelations that I would like to discuss today and I’m hoping y’all have some insight into these situations that will help me be more effective than I was last week! Yes, I exceed all my goals for last week. However, by being more effective, I mean I want to be fully confident and comfortable so that the changes and success continue!
- It is incredibly difficult to walk this journey alone.
- Over the years, I have made numerous attempts to try losing weight. Despite the various methods that I attempted to use to meet this goal, I always had someone that was engaged with my efforts on some level. However, in each of those cases, the person that was engaged with me did not follow through and I dropped out of the efforts shortly thereafter.
- One major difference this time was that my wife got involved in the changes and has been committed to them. Having a partner in this pursuit has resulted in us always having someone pushing for healthy choices on those days when we don’t feel like it or are tempted to be lazy.
- Yet, when you are walking the road with someone that is not participating or is not as committed, the temptations to quit or stop are EVERYWHERE. On the road, your body cries out for you to stop and there’s nobody around to push you forward. At meal time, it’s incredibly difficult to stick to healthy eating if someone around you is eating things you enjoy but are choosing not to have. Having had to cook most of our meals as two entirely different meals, I can also understand how freaking inconvenient it would be to cook one meal for yourself and another for your family.
- It is incredibly difficult to walk this journey with someone.
- My wife is over 100 pounds lighter than me and is working at a different pace than I am. So far, we have been able to walk together just fine. However, as we progress, our goals are starting to take different turns and we have begun talking about whether our best bet would be to separate our exercise times or not. This could be directly related to my ankle, but my wife has been having to set her pace off me. So far, this has been fine, but what if I get to a place where my speed just isn’t enough to beneficial for her?
- Each week, our scale comes calling and it’s time to weigh in. While I have been losing weight and can see those results on the scale, my wife has been plateaued. Her clothes continue to get smaller. Also, we have added walking and have clear proof that her calf muscles have developed AMAZINGLY, but the scale has become a point of contention. For the last four weeks, despite doing everything right, she hasn’t lost a single pound. She fluctuates between the same four pounds… just ounces away from her goal of losing her 50th pound. It has been extremely hard for her to celebrate my losses on the scale when she continues to struggle to get below her next major weight goal which is so very close for her!
- I am in huge competition with myself.
- The first five-mile walk that I did was the first time that I had to walk alone. I didn’t think much about it because I had been challenged and I wanted to meet that challenge. During this last past week, though, I learned that this was not an event… it is a condition. Each day last week, while I was walking alone, I would set a mental distance goal before starting my walk. However, I found that I went further each day and began seeking faster and faster times. I also experienced a significant amount of frustration when I was unable to beat my previous times.
- However, the voice inside that is constantly pushing me to work harder, go further, etc., is not the only internal voice that I struggle against. While I was out there alone, I also struggled against other internal voices. Voices that challenged me for pushing myself so hard or torturing myself. Voices that tempted me to find faulty logic to abandon some of my goals and re-establish a more balanced way of life. Voices that constantly begged me to stop… slow down… rest. By the end of the internal conversation, I got confused and give up. I mean, seriously, there is a time for everything. The key to this everything has to center on BALANCE and finding balance in a world filled with such extreme changes can be SO difficult.
- I never knew how much the various aspects of a step could impact the execution of a comfortable walk.
- I have come to realize that I need a personal stepping coach. When I first started walking, I didn’t even think about how I walk let alone analyze the way that I move my feet. Lately, I have been noticing how important everything involved in the process of a step actually is. HOLY MOSES! Learning to lose weight or how to exercise should come with its own Bachelor’s degree. Seriously!
- I have a tendency to walk with my right foot, but only lift up and drop my left foot which causes a lot of pain if I am not conscious about how I am taking my stride. Once I started paying attention to that, I found that I wasn’t following through the entire stride of my left foot which caused increased tension and soreness in my left foot. Am I really a person that has pay THIS MUCH attention to something I have been doing my WHOLE LIFE?!
- I also have to admit that I am a complete moron when it comes to knowing what makes a good walking shoe and what would make a good walking shoe for me and my wife. I own these wonderful Sketchers with memory foam or whatevers, but I have NEVER paid attention to whether my shoe is actually good for walking five miles!
I don’t know how you feel after reading all of this, but I feel incredibly frustrated. I have never put forth on this blog that I am an expert or that I even have a clue what I am doing when it comes to exercise and weight loss. Honestly, though, I have always tried put out information that I know or that I am confident with. Today, I feel like I am just verbally venting to anyone to anyone that may read this blog! I don’t even know if that’s against the rules of blogging or not. Haha! Oh well, I guess I have made it clear that I am pursuing openness, vulnerability, and honesty.
Let me know in the comments below what struck your thoughts as you were reading my revelations. Maybe you, dear reader, are holding an important key that I have been missing or have been overlooking.
For now, though, it’s back to taking my life back…
- To avoid an even more unhealthy relationship with the scale, I will only be doing weigh in information during my weekend blog post. Thanks for understanding 🙂
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3 thoughts on “Revelations and Frustrations”
Are you secretly tape recording my life and writing about it???
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No… lol. That would be highly illegal.
Hi, what you experiencing is part of the whole process. I’m no expert, but been through this myself. Your wife i.e. might be loosing fat and building muscle. The weight might actually go up, while her clothes fall off. I had a scale that showed me my fat, muscle and water % – this helped me a lot in not going crazy. Muscle weights more than fat, but it is less dense. Also … don’t forget you don’t really see the change … change is slow and if you see each other every day, you might not notice it. This is what happened to me. I still to this day can’t really get my head around the tiny pants I now fit in …
Another issue you are dealing with and I always have an will be is the balance between exercise and recovery. You need the recovery to build back up what you destroy while exercising. Initially I only went out 3 times a week, for quite a while. Now I am still changing easy and hard days. Especially in the beginning when your feet, ankles and everything isn’t yet tough enough, your body needs the recovery.
Another point that resonated with me is working out together. At some point you might be walking too slow for your wife. What she could easily do is start slow jogging next to you. It will take more work on her part. Also switching to i.e. grass for her to walk/run on while you do pavement is a nice boost!
Shoes?! Don’t even get me started. They are super super important and I would definitely recommend you get yourself and your wife to a good store run by experts that are active themselves.
You asked for it 😉
P.S: you both are doing great!